Helpless

I finally got in. I lost my password and have not been able to get in. But I am back.

I am feeling really down. Doing business is tough. My competitor is really smart and cunning. They try so hard not to sell but to keep me from selling. I do feel very discouraged.

Lord, I have been crying out to you. You have always said ... TRUST ME. But it is so difficult. Look for the little blessings that I have been giving you. I am your shepherd.

Why is it so difficult for me to trust you? I need a miracle.

Please give me one. Thanks.

rrrr ...rrrr...

I just read about a group of with lots of Rs ...

They ...

R...rebel

R ... repent

R ... rescue

R ... rejoice

only to

R ... rebel

R ... repent

R ... rescue

R ... rejoice

I often think that these people never learn. Then I realise that I am very much like them. I rebel against Him, only when I am really suffering will I repent, He will always rescue me and I will rejoice. But only to repeat the circle.

I realise that is why the ultimate sacrifice had to be made. The perfect RESCUE. Because this rescue is for the past, present, and future. Once for all. Thank you for this perfect once for all rescue.

day one

I only just begun.

The Beginning.

I'm just starting.

What did you expect?

Very simple things upset me

Why?

Why is it so hard to believe that He is in control?

Why is it so difficult to understand that He has the best for me?

Why is it so impossible to remain trusting?

Come back soon, I'm tired.